He
sat with a lonely trumpet wobble. The horn tipped toward the concrete with
stale breath going through. His lips sputtered and a note would fall out – he’d
jam a finger down and it turned blue, the note smearing over, a quiet bend like
he played it wrong.
The corner was there all day and he sat with it – crowd
shrugging by in the morning, heels clicking, not hearing the time when they
went off to run the world and keep coins for their coffee.
He gave them Freddie Hubbard – the B-flat a little off,
the C-note just a breath, but he put his mouth to the brass, lips puffed like a
blister, 20 degrees blowing by with a whistle, and he hit the harmony, a clear
note held out with his hand shaking, body propped on a crate, a Burger King cup
set out with three dollars stuffed in. Pennies from Heaven.
His
neighbors passed – some of them saw, some of them glanced down at the bedroll
and the flannel shirt he balled up like a pillow.
Some
saw a wall by the bank building, and they passed like he’d cut the bell off and
blew the horn like a secret. He’d sit there and disappear, gut hollow, sun
rising with a cold glint over the cityscape, concrete sprawled out with steel
towers, hard-wired like beacons of glass and silicone.
Then his breath got sure, notes stretching out, rising
up, a sharp flare, then a falter, and it all fell down.
At noon, he’d take his three dollars and he’d find potato
chips and an apple like a shrunken baseball. He’d eat, sitting on his crate then
he’d swab his horn out, blowing a morning’s worth of spit out, whistling slow,
cleaning the empty stares, the shuffling past, the trouble and neglect.
Then he’d throw the core in the street, chewed to the
seeds, and he’d curl the chip bag, a quarter empty and set it with his bedroll.
He took a long sigh and gave a blow. Against the wall he
made a sound like a choir of angels, cheeks puffed for a congregation that
won’t pass the plate. The notes came out sour, fluttering from a cracked lip, a
snort like from Revelation. Like if he could get a drum, he’d make Jericho
fall, let the bank spill out empty so there’s something to eat, and everyone
that passes could see how he played and tore down a mess of lies and greed and
cash stuffed to get fat later on and not share with anyone if there’s a hole in
their gut.
The bell shook, a hard attack, hand curled in a half fist
and he thought what it would be if it toppled like that and he could sit and
lord over the brick and take the riches and the things that got left behind and
build them up so he could have his, and they could handle the scraps.
He took a breath, a low rumble with the air settling low,
lips tight with the bell lifted – a cold, deep breath – and he wouldn’t want it
like that.
The sun sank in the skyline, the wind settling with
frozen rain, a hard spit of it, bouncing from the awning where he stayed dry.
And his neighbors came home, faces sapped, arms frantic to put shelter up,
something flimsy to keep their suit dry, cold jitters going by. The cars jammed
with horns and discord, exhaust in grey clouds rising to cold slate.
And he leaned on that crate, horn raised, playing a song
for the A-train, rail cars crowded with a broken mood. The splatted, faltered
notes clipped in the night, the breath of the city sucking noise and unease,
letting the soul soak through like cardboard.
And the streets cleared, the doors shut with damp shoes
set by the coat rack, the hard sleet dropping down, with a dampened song sinking
slow in the lamplight.
And when his lip strained and he couldn’t play no more,
he could sing – a low poet’s grumble laid on a bed of concrete, with the air of
chimneys rising up in the night and breath falling out from an empty gut.
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